Friday, November 07, 2008

It's all about Him

Alright, here’s a little story for you guys…I went to get some groceries one day w/ the boys…decided I might get a pregnancy test “just to make sure everything was okay”….well, we got home….I put the boys down for their nap….I looked in the mirror-cried… I was extremely nervous….took the test….God dried up the tears and replaced them with excitment (maybe I should call this nervous excitement).....called David and told him I was sick and he needed to come home…he told me to put the boys down for nap and lay down….I said no and for him to come home that I was really sick….he asked what the problem was….I said come home…..he insisted that he couldn’t…..I told him we were pregnant…..no noise……silence…..what? how do you know that?......what?.......

Well, that’s the story….isn’t it funny how God works sometimes? He can take the words right out of your mouth! This is a surprise for us….but I’m glad it wasn’t a surprise to our Lord. When I looked in the mirror that afternoon before I knew my future:-)…..I was filled with such…..well, I can’t even describe it…the best I can do is tell you a story to describe my emotions…..I was in the car one day w/ Seth and John David. We left Hudson w/ Mamaw and Papaw Ward. David was out of town. Seth and I were on the way to the emergency room with John David. He had stuck a wooden train wheel up his nose. I guess the little tire fell off and he wondered what would happen if he stuck it up his nose. Well, after some probing from mom’s tweezers I called the doctor who told me to take him to the ER. On the way there w/ Seth, all I could think about was how God was going to throw in a third one on top of this….so that’s how I felt at that moment….”what? God, are you for real?” Although we do have human feelings and emotions…I have to keep on trusting ….I’m just resting in the knowledge that even though I may plan my steps, the One who knows me better than I know myself has determined our course. I’ve said it over and over the last several years….In His will is the most amazing place to be, no matter where that takes you. No matter where that takes you. Whatever He wants…

Life’s not about me. It’s all about Him. Whatever He wants. He’s the Potter. I’m just the clay.

The Lord totally continues to amaze me…

The wisdom of this world is foolishness in the sight of God….

It’s like I can hear Him whisper: I know you, Emily, and you need to stay very very close to me. All things are for your good. You love me and you’re my called. Trust me. My plans are much more than yours. Keep running after me. I love you.

I trust him. But learning to trust him more and more.

As I looked in the mirror that day I read some verses that I had taped up…..

"Trust in Him at all times: people pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us." ps.62:8
"The Words of the Lord are flawless." Ps. 12:6


It’s still there….I don’t think I’ll be able to take it off :-)


How thankful we are for His peace that is so much more than our understanding!
Our hearts leap with joy….

6 comments:

Aubrey said...

Thanks for sharing, Em. We are praying for peace for you and your growing family. Just keep resting in His arms, girl!

Anonymous said...

John David, Hudson and little one is so blessed to have such a precious mommy! Love, GiGi

nicole said...

We are so excited for you guys. Hope you are feeling well and are given plenty of energy and rest for the journey.

Susan said...

You don't know me, but I'm a friend of the (blonde) Renstroms. I like to check your blog from time to time because I love the faith that you have and the way you write about it! I just wanted to say that I have three that are four and under... it's really not as hard as you might think! It's such a blessing, and God defintely gives us grace to get through these things. You have a wonderful family. I hope this doesn't freak you out - I just felt led to give you a word of encouragement. You'll be a-ok!

sarah said...

hey - i commented on here a while back and check your blog from time to time. i was friends with adam and david at liberty and he told me about your blog to see updates on your sweet family. my name is sarah. i just wanted to thank you for your honesty and your faith that you share. i too have kids your ages... will is going to be 3 in january, abby turned 1 on nov. 9th, and i am due in may with #3. seems like we are in the same stage of life.
God Bless you and your family!

Anonymous said...

I am so encouraged by your writings. you are a great woman of faith. Praise God for His blessings and for your heart of gold.